Timeless Existence


I am living in a timeless existence.

I don’t know what day of the week it is unless I look at the calendar; I don’t know the time unless I glance up at the clock.

I wake up to the chirping of birds and follow the circadian rhythm of my body.

My table is not a banquet full of dishes anymore; it’s just one dish which is enough for me and my body to curb the hunger.

I have filled my home with music, at all times. With the sounds of spirituality, early morning, blending effortlessly with the sounds of drum beats, as the day ends.

I am aware of the inhalation and exhalation of each breath I take, thankful to just be.

I walk up to the terrace of my house every evening as the sun sets, glancing at the twilight sky sending a silent prayer to the universe to heal each living being.

I exercise, I look after my health, I pamper myself with rest , I read, I write, I paint, I am keeping my mind busy  learning a language, creating contents for a course I may use in the future, I connect with nature, I pray, I meditate, I get in touch with all my loved ones and more than all of this, I am grateful and eternally blessed to have some wonderfully loving people, some who have always been there and some I just met, around me at all times .

I have learnt the essence of living with the bare minimum and the precious state of just enjoying the moment in a timeless existence.






Embrace your age.


As you get older, you gain perspective from the rear view mirror of your life.

There is something about aging that both men and women become more accepting of others and themselves.

This is especially true for women in the age group 50-70. They are less concerned about the opinion of others and are more determined to live life on their own terms.

There have been quite a few women who I have known since they were in their twenties and are now aging gracefully.

I guess it has more to do that after spending pretty much a lot of their youth on tending to their marriage, home and kids and they have more of  “me” time as they get older.  And with that “me” time comes a lot of satisfactory revelations, every now and then on how they would have lived differently if given another chance.

In fact come to think about it, these would have been the same things I would have changed, given the chance.

“I wish I hadn’t bowed to the family pressure to get married”.

“I know for a fact that if I had to relive those days gone by I wish I would have stopped being so afraid and taken more risks with regards to having a career. I could have juggled my time , got out of my comfort zone and held on to the needs of my own as against bowing to the needs of others first”.

“I wish I would have had a home to call my own rather than living with my in laws”.

“I wish I would have I’d trust myself and my talents more”.

“I wish I would have spent more time with my children”.

“I wish my partner understood me and my needs more”.

“I wish I would have looked after my health and endorsed a well regimented exercise program”.

“I wish I would have spent more time with my friends”.

“I wish I hadn’t allowed other people’s fears/ignorance to affect me so deeply that I would blunt my ambitions/dreams to please them”.

“I wish I would have the guts to say no and mean it”.

“I wish I would have taken up formal lessons in Dancing. I think it is the most liberating form of self expression”.

“I wish I would breathe, before I react and understand that I don’t have to have an opinion on everything”.

“I wish I could just pause and see life from a new lens”.

A lot of wisdom and comfort comes with time. Sometimes, the answer is just time — enough time to outlive the struggles in your 20’s and 30’s so that you can develop the mettle to balance the challenges that come in your 50’s and beyond.

There will be many times when you will need more than advice to overcome personal struggles.  “Embrace your age” and love who you are now. It is the key to a happy, healthy and positive aging.

Don’t bother about wanting to turn back the clock. Give yourself the gift of a well-lived life.

Live a simple and healthy life by incorporating a few lifestyle changes and habits.

Don’t forget to do the small often ignored things that will make you content.

You will live as much as been gifted to you. Just live in such a way that each day is a celebration of your life!


Age is just a number


Growing up with a lot of female relatives around me, I heard so many dreadful stories, when my aunt’s would describe how turning 30 had changed their world.  It was so funny how they would recall, that right down from the neighbourhood kid to their local vegetable vendor had started calling them “Aunty.” So naturally that fear remained with me in my 30’s, and they were bang on right, you know. How the tables had turned!

Of course what followed was inching our way into the 40’s, which of course smashed all of that nonsense to pieces.

And then some years down the line, one day you wake up, the clock has ticked, and lo and behold, you are sitting on the edge of being 50.

Holy Molly!!

Feels really old doesn’t it? Well what do you know; you have lived for more than half of your life, if statistics are to be believed.

But you can’t escape Time. It will catch up with you sooner than you say Happy Birthday to me. And this is the looking glass I am peeking into presently. In about a couple of weeks I will be celebrating yet another year lived on this planet (and no I won’t reveal the big secret.) But in spite of my growing years, I still am a “young , full of starry dreams in her eyes girl.” I don’t think I can ever let go of that unique personality trait of mine. I am an Aquarian after all.

But the fact is, I love being older. I love this feeling of wholeness that’s deepening every year. I feel rooted in who I am, and while I still get tossed around on hormonal tidal waves, at my core I know myself. I know what I’m capable of. I know my worth.

Although the changes in my body and face are not particularly welcome, would I like to erase 10-15 years off my face when I look in the mirror? Yeahhhh, some days I really would. But would I actually want to be 30 again? Naahhh, absolutely not.

I deeply appreciate knowing how much strength I have in me to survive things. And it’s not just because I experienced such a life changing bereavement in my early years. I guess I am made of more steel than frill. And also it makes me realize how strong we are as individuals and can tide over any obstacle as time moves forward. And that heart breaks will be survived. And that bad memory will fade. And that you find the forgiveness to bestow.

But I do love the empowerment I feel in this season of my life. I care less about what other people think of me and walk down the street like I own it. I also hide in my bedroom on the days I need to, but the beauty of getting older means not having to ask for anyone’s permission to do what you need. I don’t know who that permission giver was, mind you. I want to be my own biggest cheerleader, because after all these years it finally hits you that no one else is going to do it for you. And if there is one thing that I truly believe in and try as much to follow is the mantra of “less interference, less drama.”

So even though there may be those rare days when I would give anything to have had my life turn out differently, 99.9% of the time I don’t think I would change a thing.

I love that fact that I had the courage and the gumption to keep evolving and growing in this life that’s all mine. I have enjoyed and embraced the ride of the roller coaster of endless emotions of, Love, Heartbreak, Happiness, Laughter, Tears, Anger, Loneliness, Friendships, Adventure, lots of Travelling, and so many more.

And if my 40’s were this good, I hope my 50’s, 60’s and beyond (if I am lucky) will ROCK.  Coz like they say Age is just a number!

Cheers to that !!

Madhavi 🙂