It’s almost the end of 2018.
There were so many things I wanted to do this year.
So many dreams were waiting to be fulfilled. And I haven’t even started doing some of them yet. The idea is still stuck in the corner my head for the past few months. But then reality took over and I haven’t been able to actually write them down in black and white and manifesting them. Nonetheless I haven’t forgotten about them.
There are people I have been wanting to meet. It’s been too long and I haven’t seen them. They have taken up too much space in my thoughts but I haven’t been able to see them in the flesh. The pain does get unbearable at times, and the void seems even bigger. The plans were made but like it always is the case-Life happened. The plans are lying on the back burner waiting and bidding its time.
Some of the promises I made to myself at the beginning of the year were fulfilled while some are waiting in the wings with bated breath, staring back at me with pain and sorrow in their eyes.
As I am getting older, I have realised that the feeling of being contented with life is evading me. There are so many things I want to learn. There are so many doors that have to be unlocked. There are so many beautiful places in the world I still have to travel to and experience. There are so many moments in the day that I want to be alive to. I know I am getting even more impatient and greedy to accomplish some of ‘what I really want and close to my heart’ dreams before I kick the bucket.
And as 2018 is coming to an end, I hope I don’t lug the baggage of my previous years with me and stop stressing over the what ifs that I cannot change.
I hope I walk into the New Year with my eyes and my heart open to see the marvellous things around me and see God’s hand in everything.
I hope to forgive myself and the people who have caused me pain and give both of us a clean slate to start over.
I hope to be more thankful for inhaling every new day with a healthy mind, body and spirit.
I hope to be really close to my friends, and to also find new people who infuse me with their positivity and zest for life. People, who will love me and respect me, people who mean it when they say they care.
I hope to look at the sun and let all the shadows fall behind me.
And I hope to convert my two steps forward, two steps backward stance of my life into a groovy dance move.
And finally as 2018 comes to an end, I hope I am blessed enough by God’s grace to press the restart button and begin life afresh.
After all – IT’S MY LIFE!!!